stupid people :p

i pretty much ran all the way home after church on sunday, i almost friggin' died. mom wasn't home so i went into my room and cranked manson right the frack up to infinity and just headbanged and jumped around for like two hours. i thought my new meds might be messing with me but i actually think it was just what i heard at church. i got so pissed off i actually left right after communion and i didn't say "amen" after the sermon! i wondered if someone would notice and glare at me but no-one did.
there was this guest preacher from some other parish preaching today and preached on mark 8:31-38 and i really didn't like it. the guy basically said that jesus gets mad at us when we put humanly desires ahead of heavenly ones, like sleeping in on sunday and not coming to church! he said that if we didn't come to church then we were denying the importance of jesus' redeeming death for our sins and shouldn't dare to call ourselves christians. i kept looking around the church thinking "really people?!" the whole time, and it broke my heart because so many people looked uncomfortable. but that wasn't even the worst part!! so he started going off against people who don't fully conform to the christian lifestyle (whatever the frack that means) and he got so jazzed up that he started waving his hands around. and suddenly i'm like, "what the hell is that blinding me?" and he was wearing a ROLEX WATCH. i swear to god it was a genuine rolex, or maybe like an imitation or something, but either way it was expensive as hell, i could tell just by looking at it. i got so mad when i saw that i almost stood up and screamed, "get out of here, you hypocrite!" i was totally ready to do it, too!! but then i didn't because someone came and slid into the seat next to me. it was this guy i remember from youth group - i think his name was cam or something. he's tall and gangly and kind of cute in a nerdy sort of way. anyway he sat next to me and he got these really nasty looks from the old ladies in the pew behind us, probably for being late, and he looked really embarrassed and awkward, so i decided to stay seated and shut up so i wouldn't make him want to die from shame or something. :p anyway, i kept quiet and the idiot in the pulpit shut up and then we went on with the rest of the service. cam has a really nice singing voice.
anyway, so now i'm at home and i've switched manson for birthday massacre and i feel a bit better. check that - i'm a lot better, it's fried chicken night. catch you guys later.